De Ja Vue......and its creepy.

I gotta say, I am a little creeped out. Which is saying something, because I really didn't think anything when it comes to you COULD creep me out, but apparently that is not so.

When people send me links about you, I don't always go and look because quite frankly, I don't care. This time however, it was about your daughter (I was going to say oldest....but thats not accurate is it...lets see she would be your 5th oldest right?? or third daughter), which of course immediately piqued my interest.

She runs track. Wow, can't teach an old dog new tricks can we?? I skimmed over the article, and seriously, you could just delete her name and put in mine, or Suyong's for that matter. I mean, this is your comfort zone right? People tend to repeat the things they know, and well.....molding/beating/harassing/threatening your kids into star athletes is what you know right? But, I just can't help wondering WHAT ELSE are you repeating? What other behaviors that are just so comfortable for you.....

Gosh, and where does Kate find the time to be the "coach"?? What with her military duties calling her away to be "deployed" every other nano second, running for which office is it again, for the third, fourth time now?? I cant keep track, sorry. And, well, doesn't Kate have to work somewhere, or is getting her picture taken every five minutes on her platform of the"HOT BABE" campaign like a full time job now? You know, if it wasn't all so sickening, it would be laughable. You will no doubt fool most of the people, just as you did when I was your track star. You don't fool me. But you know that.

I just pray, every day, every night that you keep your filthy hands off of your daughters and son too. But, it looks like you are recreating? repeating history.

Been Pondering..................

I've been thinking a bit about your request for more time to search out key witnesses. I happen to know a really good PI.....he is a collector of our work. Anyway, I called him to pick his brain, and see if phone records can be retrieved from 23-24 years ago (you didn't think you were the only one doing some digging did you??). That line of thinking opened up a whole slew of other thoughts concerning journals, letters and hotel registrations.


Something else occurred to me, it stunned me that it didn't occur to me sooner. You pride yourself on your photographic memory, your ability to retain information, to be able to file away scraps of info and retrieve it like a computer program. But what about things you DON'T want to remember? Events,and acts that make you squirm in your seat and perhaps make that little bible you carry in the breast pocket of your coat burn like a sizzling lump of coal. Has it occurred to you, that you have simply deleted some of those files from your memory card?? I want you to know, my memory card is fully intact. When I really put effort into it, amazing bits and bites of the lessor minutia of those days come back to me with a clarity of mountain spring water. Chilling enough to give anyone brain freeze. Funny in the not laughing out loud kinda way, to think that being registered as Mr.& Mrs. Jenerette in a hotel outside of Ft. Monmouth, New Jersey would have such significance all these years later. Bet you forgot that, huh???

Need some help???

Ok, well you got your extension. Use it wisely, as its the only one the judge is granting you.....thank goodness, or at this rate, you will croak before we get to court.

Its great to know that the lies about Kate being deployed to Iraq were just that, lies. Now, you didn't get the extension based on the excuse she was deployed or rather "about" to be deployed, or "might be soon" deployed. Maybe you have been out of the service for so long you have forgotten how it works. When the orders are cut, and the soldier is given those orders....that's when you get to use those terms. For example.....my son is "about" to be deployed to Iraq, because that's what his orders say. See what I mean?? Anyway, was Kate around when you were creeping into my room at night? I never saw her during all the years you were beating us and molesting me..... she isn't a material witness to anything, so why is her presence so important to your case?? Oh, I know...its that classic, "see my wife is standing by my side thing, so I must be innocent".....all righty then, you are entitled to defend yourself as best as you can. Just an FYI though, don't get too comfy with her support, historically the wives tend to be the last to get a clue, but when they do....it ain't pretty.

Anyway...the real question is, who are these witnesses you are looking for? Can I help you find them? I would be happy to help you locate anyone you think will clear your name. Two heads are better than one right? maybe if we work together, we can locate your critical witnesses and get this trial going......isn't it bothersome to have this thing hanging over your head till next year??? But, you know what? I realize its your life hanging in the balance..........

So, I don't begrudge you the extra time to search high, search low, look West of the Rockies, go anywhere East of the Mississippi...its ok with me.... you might even try a Ouija board,maybe the spirit world can save you.... I can help there too if need be...I have some experience. Maybe you should consult Sylvia Brown, who knows who might materialize..... N K ??? Do let me know,if I can be of any help.....


See you next March. Keep jogging, eat healthy and stay fit,you need those endorphins to help you keep a positive attitude during those dark moments of solitude when you get a glimpse of your future.

I have already won, you know that don't you? I don't mean the court verdict.....though that too. Yes. I believe that you do know.

Why are you dragging your feet????

So this is an exercise in futility, but I can't help it.




Here is the scenario: If your adult daughter pops up out of nowhere after years of no contact,and accuses you of sexually and physically abusing her during her entire childhood, and you are subsequently arrested based on that secretly taped encounter, then indicted by the Grand Jury and your contention is that you are innocent of all charges, and your daughter is on some crazed mission to destroy you......would you want to drag out the trial as long as possible or would you want a quick speedy one? If you are innocent wouldn't you want to quickly have your day in court so you could disprove her allegations, reclaim your reputation and put this sordid ordeal behind you with alacrity? If you are innocent wouldn't you be chaffing at the bit to get on the witness stand, explain away that taped conversation, show the daughter to be crazed, clear all doubt from everyone's mind that you are no pedophile???? Why in the world would you want to delay one moment longer than necessary? If I was innocent, I would be camped out on the court house steps, eagerly,anxiously anticipating that glorious moment when I could prove to the world that I was not a child abuser. But....thats just me.

You were arrested in Oct 2007, indicted a few months later so you have had a year and a half to prepare yourself for the trial, dig up whatever dirt you can find to discredit me, and prove your innocence.....I mean, I know you have been preparing your defense since even before our little taped conversation, so surly you must be ready?? Lets get this show started. What are you dragging your heels for? How much more time do you need to prepare? You do know that the courts will only allow so many of these continuances, or rather delaying tactics, right?? Eventually you are going to have to bring your pathetic cowardly husk to the courtroom, sit at your table and silently, impotently watch the house of lies and deceit you have built slowly, inexorably be peeled away layer by layer. You won't be able to use your "gift of gab" otherwise known by your family as your gift of B.S. to spin ,twist and recreate truth because you will be up against those who know you intimately. Sooner or later every gory, despicable, atrocity that you committed will be revealed, you will be flayed alive with the truth and no amount of time wasted on continuances will keep you from facing justice.

Come on, don't hide behind legal tactics, lets do this. March, its right around the corner, whats the weather like there??

Moving Forward Slowly

Progress is being made, the Grand Jury re-indicted on two new charges. 2 counts of Lewd Acts, which carries a maximum of 15yrs each and a mandatory sexual predator registry. I have been informed that there is a good chance that we will be going to trial in the next six months. Hopefully we will have a solid court date in a couple weeks.

Is it possible to look forward to something with loathing?


I have been imagining what it will be like to face you in court. To sit in the witness box, to recount in detail, to bare your ugliest most heinous acts......to look into your face while I expose the monster you are.....I wonder what I will feel? I wonder what you will feel? I am curious what expressions you will have......when the tape is played.

I have rewound that taped conversation over and over in my head, each time, I think of better things to say. Interestingly enough, you always say the same things. I wonder what expression I will have.......when the tape is played.

A story that is familiar.

I was sent some links to a story about a civil rights leader, James Bevel, who seems to have had some despicable secrets. As I read the various links I found, I couldn't help but recognize some eerily familiar strains.

One sentence resonated so powerfully, when I read it I had to stop and pause,letting it sink in....... 'inability to grasp that a man can sometimes be both hero and monster '.

This explains my father. Who was my hero, whom I admired, who dazzled and charmed everyone he met. Whose intellect overpowered all his foes. Whose talents as an artist and a creative force left you amazed. Who could be gentle, compassionate and loving. Whose eyes could convey so much emotion, and when he smiled at you it felt like you were the most important person in the world. As a girl his approval was everything to me, seeking to see the smile, waiting to hear his laugh, filled me with happiness. If only the Monster could be vanquished, but inevitably those eyes would turn fierce and hard. The mouth would snarl, and the hands that could create works of beauty would turn to battering rams. A stream of filth would pour from his lips tearing whoever it was aimed at down to nothing but a shivering mass, terrified and helpless. The coercion of my innocence and corruption of my love to fill his sick needs. The Hero and the Monster. This is my father.



Here are some of the links if you are interested: I found the story done in the Washington Post most compelling. A Fathers Shadow.http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/story/2008/05/22/ST2008052202216.html
http://www.slate.com/id/2188857/
http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2008/04/09/AR2008040902318.html
http://www.chicagotribune.com/news/nationworld/chi-rev-james-l-bevel-081015-ht,0,5179786.story
http://omnipotentpoobah.com/2008/05/25/good-man-bad-man-the-strange-case-of-rev-james-bevel/

Is this going to be your DEFENSE?????

Well, have I proven I have BALLS??? I published BOTH of your asinine comments.

Gee, if that's all it takes, this will be a cinch.


As for us being felons..........erm.....not exactly true.
But lets say for the sake of your retarded assertions, we were felons.....please tell me how that changes anything??? OH, WOW. You must be talking about that secret clause in parenting that allows your father to beat the living hell out of you for years,molests you daily and forces you to live in sheer hell just as long as when you become an adult you get yourself arrested. All of your actions, are permissible and forgivable....your kids grew up, they kept the name they were given(bingo!!), and they got themselves arrested for something like domestic violence, or bad check writing for example(ding dong!!). So, we sure are barking up the wrong tree here....wish the ADA and police would have reminded me of that little ole clause. If only I had known that any laws I might have broken would nullify the atrocities you committed. Oh, I also forgot the number one pass you get, if enough time passes since the crimes were committed(like twenty odd years), you can beat, molest, terrorize, humiliate and violate children to your hearts content. Its only a crime and counts if they report it.......umm....I guess I don't know exactly what the acceptable time frame is for reporting so it will count as a crime. But I have been informed by many wise, and incredibly well educated posters on forums that twenty some odd years is MOST DEF. too late(baabam!!) to report the abuse!! well, gosh darn it all.....its just not a big deal anymore, and it sure doesn't count, so I should just pack it in and quit my whining!!!


You are looking at prison time, its only a question of how long......a few years or till you rot. Mercy is what you should be seeking right now. You know, I am going to tell you something. It didn't have to be this way, and I think you know that. You had opportunities over the past few years, you could have changed this entire situation. Nothing you do could ever erase what you did to all of us as kids, but you certainly could have brought us healing as adults. You could have shown us you had changed, that your kids now were safe, but no. You proved beyond all doubt that NOTHING HAS CHANGED. You are the same man who smashed his fists into our faces, had sex with me, and told me you would kill us all if I told. You have no remorse, no shame, no guilt. You use your puppets, even now, to try and smear US, your victims! Have you no fear of God's judgment? I know you believe in some form of God, I think. What is He saying to your heart right now? Lie, smear, twist the truth, find a way out of this, blame her, blame them, she wanted it, she seduced you, she's unbalanced, they are jealous of you, vindictive bitch just wont let you off the hook? what is it that you pray at night? I pray that God will have Mercy on your soul, because I don't think a Jury will.

Suyong has something to say.........

We all have different speeds at which we deal with everything in life. My sister has not felt led to say anything publicly up till now. However,she has decided that she is ready and has something to say and she posted on FreeRepublic. She gave me permission to repost her comment. She is responding to a thread where there are some ridiculous comments, and apparently it really ticked her off! here is a link if you want to read the whole thread.
http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/f-news/1917214/posts


Yes - here I am - Van Jenerette’s first born, or so he claims...

First, I’d like to quash any doubt about allegations and the severety of my father’s crimes against his children(adopted or not). Sorry to dissappoint some of you, but it does pain me to tell you that they are true.

You want to talk about MORBID? That’s because it IS! What’s really morbid about it all is the fact that most of you, probably, couldn’t phathom, much less handle the details of even half of the abuse my father bestowed upon us, even AFTER we went off to college. Or do you REALLY want to believe that my sister, brother and I, all, hallucinated the same memories?

Rest assured that there is no personal gain for us in this. As a matter of fact, it saddens us. Ever stop to think how difficult it is for us to even speak of such things about our father? My sister’s blog is just that - a blog. If you don’t like it, don’t read it. Who do you think you are for questioning how she copes and expresses the pain she still endures from years of TRAUMA? Try walking a mile in our shoes and let’s see how YOU cope.

Second, it is a fact that we all kept our given surname by our own choice. Why? Simple. It belongs to us. Indeed, it is nauseating to admit that this sad excuse for a human being, much less a father, IS my father and that we bear the same name. My father has tainted the Jenerette name for himself, not the rest of us. I’m PROUD to be a Jenerette and so are my children. For those of you who have been dwelling on the name and not the seriousness and nature of his crimes can ALL GO POUND SAND.

Third, these last 20 years have been quite excruciating for all of us, because we wish we could have mustered up the strength to expose my father and his evil ways much sooner. If he didn’t have other children, we probably would have had to take these horrific, humiliating, and embarassing memories to our graves. That, in itself, is the tragedy.

Finally, to Katherine Jenerette, stop being his PUPPET and speak for yourself. Protecting him is only going to drive a bigger wedge between you and your children in the end, not to mention your career. Just ditch the baggage and take the kids (my brother and sisters) with you. Step into 2008! There are resources and help for battered women! You KNOW your denial won’t work with me because I HAVE met you, and you know what I know.

Hey RileyD? For knowing my father for SO LONG, how come I don’t know you?

Well, folks, if you are interested in the facts of the case, and you have a strong stomach, reserve some box seats at his trial.

Memories..........

I was sorting, organizing a book shelf in the living room and came across a year book. I assumed it was my husband's as I couldn't recall ever being allowed to buy one. As I looked at the cover, suddenly a flood of memories hit me. Its not that I had forgotten them, or suppressed them....its more like they were just sitting on a dusty old shelf waiting for me to dust them off and examine them, much like the year book. As I flipped through the pages, a couple newspaper clippings fell out. My father was meticulous about clipping out anything in the paper with our names attached. I remember the first time I ran in a race and my name was mentioned as a participant, my father clipped the article and put it in a scrap book. In fact, I had a huge scrapbook of newspaper clippings.....I was in the paper a lot growing up. I wonder whatever happened to it?

Anyway, I could barely remember the names of my classmates, we weren't allowed to have friends, none ever came to our home, we never had sleep overs. Well, actually, I did have one, once, in KS for my 12th birthday. But I remembered the faces, the coaches and the teachers. I remember a teacher begging me to tell him what was going on in my family. I remember the pleading look in the eyes of my cross country coach, silently asking me to trust him. I remember feeling like I was drowning, everyday as I walked the halls, as I ran around the track, as I marched up and down the fields playing soldier. I remember hearing my name every Monday over the speakers,announcing another win for track or cross country. I remember thinking I am the most famous invisible, non-person in my school. I remember spending a lot of time thinking of ways to kill myself, while I struggled to stay on the Honor Roll, as I won the Superior Junior Cadet award, as I earned a Varsity letter as a freshmen.

I sat peering into the past,trailing my eyes over the pages, letting the memories wash over me, and I cried. I let spill just a few drops of pain, emptying my chest, just a little. I stared into the eyes of my 14 year old self, and studied the mystery of who I was and what strength I must have had to endure. I allow myself a moment of pride, marveling at the tenacious grip, I must have had on life. I never let myself dwell on the "what ifs", because the "what ifs" can literally drive me insane. I am a realist, and I live in a totally grounded world, I am often accused of being harshly honest, of keeping it too real......thats ok, because thats how I need to live. But once in a great while, a movie, a song, or a year book will trigger the "what ifs" and I slide down a hopeless path that leads nowhere. I allowed myself to wallow for a bit, and then I pulled it together, as I always do, and put the year book back on the shelf, careful not to disturb the years of dust that had fallen gently around it.

Tough place to live.

Ive been getting links to the Freeper site about Katherine's bid for Senate and have been asked repeatedly what I think about it.


I guess I have conflicted feelings.


On the one hand, I don't really have an ax to grind with Kate. I am convinced she is/has been a battered wife. I know she told me her first husband abused her, don't know if thats true or if that was an attempt to gain my sympathy and trust. She was after all having an affair with Van, my dad, at the time. I know that my father has beaten her..... How do I know? she told me herself, years ago. Now there is a guy on Freepers...CutePuppy, who seems quite adept at "discovering" info thats not in the usual public information sites online. Don't take my word for it, why don't you let your fingers do the clicking as you said CutePuppy, and look up Kate's medical files.....here is a hint, look in Charleston. Lets see what amazing story she had to concoct to explain, broken ribs, broken jaw, black eyes. Of course, I also witnessed it with my own eyes, but my credibility would be questioned, so thats not exactly proof. According to Kate, the only time she got a respite from being beaten was when she was pregnant. BTW, while your at the private investigating, lets see what you can dig up on fraternization, and reprimands from their commanding officers. Lets also see exactly how driving a jeep, writing press releases and sleeping with her superior contributed to her vast military expertise. Yes, I have some disdain for distortions and lies, but kudos to my father, he is a seasoned pro at cover ups and remaking of history.


What I do know, and the person I know inside out, is my father. He is a violent,controlling,abusive man with out of control appetites and most likely a sociopath, just my own diagnosis. Perhaps he has mellowed in recent years, he is after all reaching Senior Citizen status and with Kate being photoed at every opportunity, he cant very well risk black eyes anymore. But, trust me, a person can be horribly abused and not have a mark on them. Knowing my father as I do,I have no doubt that Kate is completely and totally under his control. Brain washed and psychologically made dependent on him because THATS what he does! So, as a Republican conservative, I applaud Kate's bid, and under different circumstances would even campaign for her. However, she is married to my father. That alone is reason enough to run screaming in the other direction. If she is elected, it will be my father who is sitting in that Senate seat, THAT you can take to the bank. Much like the sentiment that a Clinton in the WH is a Clinton in the WH! So, there is the crux of my mixed feelings.

If Kate has been indicted in some way by me, here on my blog, its only been because of her relationship with my father. In an attempt to be more fair towards her, I even changed(after I figured out how to do it!)the original title of my blog.....because as my brother pointed out, Kate is not the target, or culprit here....our father is. I attribute most of her exaggerations, lies and misinformation about her military career, how she met my father etc...to my father.....primarily because he smiled at me and said "everybody lies in politics, everybody changes their past" to him, there is absolutetly nothing wrong with lying and deceit....its how he lives. Katherine is as much a victim today, as my mother was, as I was and my siblings were.


Changing gears............

Something I saw on Free Republic posted several times was my "quote" about not being able to let my father and Kate sit in the political arena. Here is the "rest" of that comment. I said, I couldn't sit back and let them sit in the political arena because of the kind of man my father was.....because I knew he was the one pulling the strings. I didn't think, a rapist, child molester, child abuser, pedophile should be in office....nor anyone he controlled. My comment in its entirety is directed at my father, less so at Kate. Do I really need to explain the media, and their agenda, selective editing etc???? My motivations are not specifically political, I AM a registered Republican, so itdoesn't make much sense, to derail a female conservative, who actually represents most of my own values if what she purports to believe in is true. I don't live in SC, and have nothing to gain one way or the other, regardless of what happens in the Senate race. Do I think there are people using my situation and the charges against my father to derail Kate's bid.....certainly. But thats politics isn't it? A candidate is not just scrutinized for themselves and their past, but their spouses, their pastors, and the people who they associate with regularly. Ask Obama about it.

In case I have not been clear, or what I have written here is misinterpreted.........let me be clear NOW. This blog is about my father. A child abusing madman who has gotten away with torture and horrific abuse.....a man who thought he could walk away and leave a trail of destruction behind him, have a whole new set of kids and do it all over again. A man who was so secure in his power,who counted on the fear and powerlessness of the people he abused to keep silent, to keep his secrets. This blog and everything I have done to date has been about bringing him to justice, to accountability. I am convinced his children are in danger, if not physically most certainly emotionally/psychologically. I believe Kate has witnessed and allowed her children to be traumatized, as my own mother did when I was a child, and this leaves me with a certain amount of antipathy towards Kate. It is tinged, however with compassion, because I know Kate is not capable of protecting herself, let alone her kids as much as my own mother was incapable of and failed to protect us.

So back to the reason I am posting today. I wish Kate wasn't married to my father, I wish I believed she wasn't just his dupe and puppet, and I wish she could escape his clutches. As long as she is with him, as long as she continues to refuse to face and deny what she knows first hand about him, I guess my opinion on her candidacy for Senate is, I hope she loses. Or, better yet, my father goes to prison and Kate is free of an evil, she is incapable of freeing herself and her children from.........

I hope the voters of her district read my blog. Its not Katherine you will be putting into office, unfortunately ......its Van Jenerette III soon to be convicted child molester.

but really..........what does my opinion matter? It doesn't.